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I had my portfolio assessment yesterday afternoon... and now I am finished. Finished.

Done school, forever.


I'm not sure what to think.
I'm sure September will roll around and I will feel very strange (after the convention, of course) to not be in school. For now I just feel the customary relief and happiness to be finished with homework and tests and presentations and such. I still have a month of placement (like an internship), but it's a job, more or less. I just don't get paid for it.

BUT now homework is finished. My portfolio is finished. If it's not too large, I may put it up soon. If it is, well, I'm planning to get my own server soon (for laurelVISION, w00t), so I'll put it up there. I'd put it up on my school website, but we're losing that soon, so I don't want to rely on it.

Heh.. I was going on about seven or nine hours of sleep over a period of about four days before portfolio (thurs). I came home yesterday, ecstatic over the good reception my presentation received, and was jumping about online (as anyone who was online will know). About six I started yawning so I thought I'd lie down for a nap.
I woke up about 10:30 this morning, still in my dressy clothes, with a cat purring on my stomach.
That's about fourteen hours of sleep. I feel really awake now, though. Went and cleaned the kitchen and everything - and finally had time to sit outside in the front yard to read, with all three animals roaming around. Very entertaining to watch Luna (wearing a harness attached to a long leash)  try to climb the tree.She was very confused when she couldn't get up any higher than my head.
Then she didn't know how to get down so I had to go fetch her.

It feels nice to not have to do anything.
I have comics and such that must be finished, and I have deadlines for those - but there's no one breathing over my shoulder, I'm not worried for marks, and drawing comics is fun still. I made and accepted those deadlines myself, so I can hardly be bitter or worried about them. It makes all the difference, really. Whether it's something I set for myself to do, versus something a teacher has set for me.
You may argue that this is the same thing I should be expecting of a typical multimedia job. And it is, but with small differences that make me feel less apathetic towards the projects.
If I'm making something for a teacher, I'm doing it for myself, really. If I don't do a project (or do it badly) I lose marks, which only hurts me. If I'm in a group project, I will buckle down and force myself to finish my part, and to do it well, for the sake of the other people in my group. I don't want to bring other people down with my laziness.
It's the same in the working world. Ultimately, it doesn't matter to a teacher whether you do your work or not. It concerns them, sure, but it doesn't make a difference in their life if I am a lazy ass. But a client has specifically hired me to do this work for them (or a company has hired me and given me work, much like I am assigned work to do in a group at school). If I don't get things done in time, I hurt other people with it. Maybe they had to have something finished for a certain date - like a company conference or something. If I don't pull my weight, everyone connected suffers. 
Plus, when I finish a project, I know that it matters to someone. It's not just another project in a pile of similar projects, which have only been assigned so that a teacher can see that we know what we're doing. Most of the time, they just collect dust in a corner.
If I make something for a job, I know it's been assigned to me because they feel I am the best one for the job, for whatever reason, and that they are looking forward to seeing the finished project, and that it won't just sit in a cabinet and be forgotten.

*le sigh*

That's my rant.
And I know it's true (and not just self-justification of my laziness) because I always pull my weight in group projects, and I have always been a decently hard worker in any job I've kept (with the exception of the flea market, but it was so dull there). When I did that project for Mark, too, I did it pretty quick and I was sure to make every illustration of good quality.

OK, well I have to go feed the cats, and then I think I'll come back here and do absolutely nothing for another few hours, just because I can.

See you all later, and look forward to a comic on Monday! IN COLOUR!

I promised Keon, and he has taken my word and says that if I don't update, I get a kick in the butt.
And he knows where I live..

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